Roller-Coster

I do thank the universe that I have gotten the ability to express my feelings in both spoken words and written. It is an relief to be able to express when I'm happy and when I'm upset and sad. These last couple of days have been rough... Extremely rough, and I have gone from feeling empty as a black hole to crying my eyes out. I've gone from feeling extremely guilty (for absolutely no reason) to being angry at the person who was suppose to be all of our siblings rock and safety. A lot of things have been stirred up this week, but I also noticing that I'm so much stronger and a lot more mature how to handle things.

Yesterday was a roller-coaster but I am so happy that I have a best friend like my best friend. We had planned since a couple of weeks back that we were to walk 60,000 steps in one day. When I first received the news a couple of days ago I really didn't think I'd be able to do it, but I did... And I am so happy I did. I'm happy that I got out, did my best and achieved it, I did it! We did it, almost 40km walk, it took us 11 hours to finish. Our feet and legs were like over cooked pasta. But we did it. We talked about everything, I listened to her and she listened to me. We didn't talk that much about what had happened, just a little, and I think it was the perfect way. It was a good, exhausting day and I didn't have time to think too much. Today has been a calm day, but okay. Done some rearranging, writing and resting my legs.

Now I'm going to sit next to my little furry friend, watch a movie and then sleep.

Don't forget to live your lives.